Do you ever sit back and reflect on your life? Do you ever wonder how the events and choices you made got you to your present state of comfortably wishing for something exciting and meaningful to happen? And you just cant take it anymore so you break down the wall you have created around yourself, only to be knocked back by the overwhelming amount of possibilities that lay before you? This weekend was just another sledgehammer to my wall of limitations.

After I cleared my head of its bzzzittttt's and fuzziness I drove myself to the coffee shop and relaxed a bit before I dove to the club to watch Spencer and Aaron spin. I mainly talked with my friend Christian most of the night over a few pitchers of beer. Our conversation ended abruptly when our friends had to stop spinning because of Utah's wonderful "no dancing after 2am" law. Needless to say, I was hungry for more of what the night had to offer me, (and plus I had only been up about 5 hours at this point).

I called Nate to see how his night was going, it turned out he was at a suite in the Hotel Monaco that his friend Zooby Wa had rented for the evening.

We talked for awhile over some glasses of wine. Then while I was admiring the view the conversation took a strange turn and went to talking about a fish that had recently been in the Hotel Room, living peacefully in his ready-made fish bowl. It turns out someone thought he needed to experience a new environment and dumped his bowl in the bathroom sink. The fish saw this as his moment of freedom and ended up swimming down the drain.

So, they were discussing how morally wrong it was to put the fish in someone's mouth (which some also did earlier in the evening) in opposed to putting it in the sink. So to prove someone’s point, which I’m still not too certain of, they asked me to call room service and have them bring them up another fish. Keep in mind, it’s about 4:30am. So I calmly went to the phone, dialed 0 and said

Me: “Hi, yes, I was wondering about the fish that are in our room, are they free?”

Front Desk: “Why yes sir, they are”

Me: “Well, could be get another one sent to room 1103 please, our last one decided he had enough of being a prisoner and is probably swimming somewhere in the hotel drainage system”

Front Desk: “Oh, I’m quite sorry about that, I will have one brought to your room promptly”

Me: “Thank you so much”

Wow, how fucking silly was that phone call! I mean, come on it was obvious we were silly kids looking for a silly fish at a silly hour, he didn’t need to keep playing that stupid ass ritzy hotel act. But we got our fish and they dumped him in the sink once again, so who knows, he might of gotten the chance to be with his friend outside the walls of the walls the Hotel Monaco put him in.

After we took care of the fish problem this girl from Russia decided she wanted a cigarette. No one else in the room smoked, so she went outside to the street corner to get one from some random person. She ended up flagging down a bus going to Vegas and got one from the driver. Now all she needed was a light. Nate found this a perfect opportunity to compete with this girl and said he would get her matches from the room before she could find them on the street. Not even a minute after he left we saw 2 guys walking across the street. When we got closer I noticed the guy who was reaching in his pocket to get the Russian girl a light was holding his side and was bleeding. Then I noticed his other shirt that was over his shoulder and covered in blood. And right when I was thinking that there was a deeper problem out there that made this girls nicotine addiction seem like dog shit on your shoe. But before I could ask if he was all right, he said;

Bleeding Dude: “Yo! You guys seen 6 thugs run by here?!”

We both nervously shake our heads

Bleeding Dude: “Well aight then, you guys know where the hospital is?!”

I gave him directions! That’s it. I feel bad. The decision was mine weather or not to help this guy and out of fear I turned my head. It would have been no sweat off my back to take them 10 blocks. What if that was me bleeding and I had no car, the buses were not running and I had just got jumped by 6 guys!? Who’s to say because of me not helping him he found those 6 guys they got into a fight again and all of them ended up dead on the street. I could have easily helped him by calling a cab if I was worried about my safety. This was my time to give back to humanity and I ran away with my tail between my legs. I didn’t even realize what I was doing, or better yet, what I was NOT doing. Maybe through this experience I can go that extra step next time, and who’s to say what will happen.

I feel kind of like that stupid fish in a way by wanting to take advantage of this new environment that I was placed in, but just ending up getting stuck deeper in something new. But I would of never experienced what I did and learned what I learned if I didn’t take advantage of the opportunities and choices that are in front of me. Being conscience of my choices is better then sleepwalking through life, yes, but if I can make those choices from my heart I will be able to better myself and the people around me.