A decision
Its been a tough couple of days. I have been tossing and turning in my head and trying to make sense of this newly formed madness! It’s all happening so fast. It’s been hard to focus but I have listened to my heart and I have finally made a decision. It's a huge decision. And I am proud of myself because it’s a decision I made by myself.

In a month and a half things are going to be completely different.

My Mom and Step-Dad (Jerry) will be here at any time today, its going to be difficult to talk to them I can tell. I hope that things go some what smooth. I know they are not going to like my decision, but for the first time in my life...I don’t care what they think. It’s my life, and I am going to do what I feel is best for me. And besides, I have my father, for the first time in my life, actually behind me and pushing me to do this. He is helping me so much I can’t help but think how stupid I was to not mend things with him sooner. Why hold grudges through life, it just wears you down and creates more problems. Ehhh, I don’t know, maybe my mom will surprise me and help me through this, but if not, I will be ready to do it on my own. Its a big step in gaining my own independence, but its going to happen sooner or later, so why not now when I am ready for it. I don’t know what else to say. I should be talking about this but I want to make sure I tell the people that are here about my decision before I tell all of you out there in cyberspace. Things will be much easier on here when I can come right out and say it. I will stop writing until I can speak freely of this decision.